"There was no one to tell, and nowhere to hide. I kept the pain on the inside while a part of me died." 

They say with time it gets better

16 years and I'm still waiting 

I fight 

I cry 

I scream

I'm still waiting

I wake up, afraid to open my eyes

Afraid to start my day

Afraid of who or what will trigger it

Afraid of every minute

I'm still waiting

I'm afraid to walk out the door 

Afraid of who is out there

Afraid of what will happen

Afraid of screaming

Afraid of not being good enough 

I'm still waiting 

I'm so afraid to start a new day

Because I'm still waiting.