My grades started to drop

My heart wanted to stop
I tried to study
Then things got bloody
Grades don’t matter, you do
That was my cue
That needed to work hard
Even though I was the wildcard
No one else was in the same pain
No one else wanted it to rain
Rain was sad
I was mad
I needed my grades to go up
I always was the runner-up
First to lose
Didn’t get to choose
My grades were lowering
Everyone asked me how things were going
I said i’m fine
That’s where I drew the line
The truth was hidden
The real me was forbidden
I was just in so much pain
My feelings started to drain
My grades went down too
No one had a clue
She is so perfect they say
They probably couldn’t survive a day
The dreams in her head
Where she was dead
No one could imagine
That my life needed action
Just a sport or too they advised
But as always things capsized
I was boat that was sinking
Grades dropping
Friends leaving
I was grieving
My life should be done
But in reality it had just begun
I found theater, I started to act
I began making contact
I found new friends
I tied loose ends
But all to think
In a blink
My life could have been done