I'm addicted to sadness
It's my favorite drug
If fills up my head
and cripples my lungs
My tears are nicotine
Chemicals for blood
Got smoke in my head
And glass in my eyes
Thorns in my arms
And stitched up thighs

I had plans for the world
But life pummeled me to bits
Pushed me in corners and
poked holes between my ribs

Maybe I bleed out
Maybe I don't
I'll leave behind one dying note
At the end of the day
I've smiled a lot
But things in my head
The things that I've thought

Fight off my smiles
And staple my lungs
So I can't breathe
I can't even think

Each new addition
To my life's grand scheme
Sets flames alight
A wildfire of anxiety.