I want to talk about life.
How you made everything better by your smile.
I want to talk about how you lit up my world just by your kindness,
Simply how you made my days wondrous.
And every moment I spent with you,
I never wanted it to end.

I want to talk about April 26, 2008.
A beautiful sunny day,
Instantly turning into a dark gloomy day.
How this day turned into a crying day.
The day that changed my life forever.
A day to honor your life.
A day that became yours;
And only yours.
A day you will especially
Be remembered forever.
Why did you have to go?

I want to talk about your passing.
How your glistening smile shined
Like the bright beautiful sunshine above.
Now; only in my memory.

I want to talk about the day you passed.
Trying to hold back the tears,
From rolling down my cheeks.
But I just couldn't.

A hole formed around my heart.
Just like everyone else's in the family,

I want to talk about how a year after your passing,
Your family was still living in sorrow.
Maybe we don't show it by the expressions on our faces,
But we all still say our graces,
Wishing you were still here with us.

I want to talk about family.
How you left us all here on earth,
And went to heaven.
How grandma lost her husband.
How his five children lost their father.
How all of the grandchildren and great grandchildren,
Lost their grandpa.
How you never met some of your great grand children,
And now you never will.
Until we all pass, and you see us from the spirits above.

I want to talk about how you don't get to watch me grow.
How you don't get to see your great grandchildren grow.
How you are missing out on so many family memories.
How you don't get to live in the moment with your family,
Who loves you the most.
Why did you have to go?

I want to talk about how your passing impacted our lives.
I mean, yeah I am still coping from a difficult time.
But not as good as we would be with you here.
We all miss you, every second of the day.

I want to talk about our lives now.
How we still sit in your favorite chair,
And never wanting to get up.
How we still sit at the dinner table
Leaving your chair empty.

I want to talk about how no one
Was the same
After your passing.
How your family is learning that 
You won't come back.

I want to talk about how we all
Didn't want to see a world or
Live in a world without you,
But you forced us to.

I want to talk about how
We've learned to live
Without you.

-Goodbye for Now, I will see you again soon!
You will forever be in my heart
Love Alesha