I thought I was ready
to forgive.
I know it would be easier
for everyone if I did.
But honestly, you’ve walked
all over me my entire life,
and I don’t think
I can ever forgive you.

I don’t think I can ever forgive you
for all the times you hit me
because you couldn’t control
your anger.
You left marks on my skin and
a chip in my tooth.

I don’t think I can ever forgive you
for the words you’ve said to me,
which felt like shards of glass
piercing my skin.
All I am in your dark and cruel eyes
is a mistake.

I don’t think I can ever forgive you
for never, not once
apologizing to me.
You’ve never admitted that
you’ve taken something away
from me.

I don't think I can forgive you
for all the birthdays and holidays
you missed with me
because you were off vacationing
with your thirty-year-old mistress and
your daughter
the two of you have together.

I don't think I can forgive you
for the countless nights
I cried myself to sleep.

But, what I know
I can never forgive you for
is hurting my mom.
She’s pure and
filled with light.
And, you had to take
that away from her, too.