It’s 3 am and I’m afraid to go to sleep.
The still silence scares me of my reality.
You are gone.
All you have left is this hole in my bed.
The cold now holds me.
My tears now comfort me.
I can only think about you and her as I lay alone.
Why, why, why screams through my head.
I toss and turn throughout the night.
Why wasn’t I good enough for you?
Do you even miss me?
How could you do this? You promised me forever.
I just want to scream at you.
Tell you off and show you all the pain you’ve caused me.
Yet, my heart still aches for you.
I need you to hold me and tell me everything is going to be alright.
Play with my hair. Kiss my forehead.
Wrap me in your warmth.
Your scent relaxed me like a lullabye.
But here I am at 3am.
Hoping I’m your biggest regret.
Hoping you realised what you have done.
But, each day I lose more hope.
Instead I prepare myself for more restless nights.