It means pain and sorrow.
The agonizing, searing pain of my insides turning on each other.
Ripping each other to shreds, killing each other.
As each one falls, the deeper I’m underwater.
My lungs start to implode under pressure.
My heart slowly trying to eat itself.
Everything inside turning into chaos.
I have nothing left inside me.
My body destroyed itself.
I have nothing left to live for, nothing to go home to.
I sink there, falling deeper and deeper underwater, as my blood tints the ocean floor.
This is my home now.

                    Everybody’s Mad

She claws at her face,
Her body filling with anger and sadness.
She has no place to go, no place to hide.
She’s stuck with the emptiness of her heart, and the painfulness of her mind.
She rips gashes in her chest, and screams in agony.
Tears pouring down her face.
Blood gushing out of her chest.
She’s alone.

                          Lights

They look at me as they quietly point and laugh.
Did I do something funny?
Is it really me they’re laughing at?
I look around to try and understand what’s so funny.
They seem to be laughing harder.
I finally look at myself, only to see a bloody insecure mess of myself.
Their laughs suddenly start to get louder, booming in my ears as they start to distort.
Everything is getting blurry.
There’s no way out.
Help!
I need to get out.
I need to breathe.
My tears are trying to explode out of me, but I won’t let them.
In return, they suffocate me keeping me from breathing, from living.
It’s just a bad dream.
Wake up.
Wake up.
Wake up!
I open my eyes gasping for air only to feel the tight squeeze of someone restraining me.
Its’s pitch black.
It’s so quiet, I can hear my heart beating out of my chest.
I take a sharp gasp of air as I hear footsteps coming towards me.
I was dropped to my knees as the entity comes barreling towards me.
The last thing I see are two bright lights come closer to me.

                            Society

I wish I was acceptable.
I am vulnerable.
I am lonely.
I am easy to manipulate.
I am trash.
I don’t belong here.
I don’t deserve anyone.
I don’t deserve to live.
I’m ugly.
I’m too skinny.
I’m a doormat.
I am weak.
I am dumb.
I am stupid.
I am not smart.
I am smart.
I am beautiful.
I am amazing.
I am kind.
I have great friends.
I have an amazing family.
I belong here.
I am loved.
Now read it from the bottom, up.