I don’t think I’ve ever felt like this before
Surrounded by people but utterly alone
They tell me their secrets
They let their walls down
But they do not understand
How it feels

He was kicked out of his house at fifteen
His mother high on drugs
His father non-existent
Struggling to make the right decisions
Struggling to be an adult
But people love him
As do I
But he’s leaving me
Just like the rest
A scholarship in one hand
And a ticket to the real world in the other

She tells me things
Things I never imagined
She needs help
That I can’t give
How can I be her friend
When I can’t even keep my own life together
But she has him.
And she has others.

My mother
Her childhood ripped away from her
A mom who didn’t love her
A dad who couldn't cope
Every one she ever loved
Quit
Mere months after being haunted by demons
She meets my father
A baby is born
Thrust into a new life
Not knowing how to do it
Her past comes back to haunt her
To this day she struggles
Always feeling alone
Always feeling as if she's failed
She already hung the moon
And they want her to single handedly hang the stars
When is it enough
When is she good enough

What am I supposed to do
I cannot show my mother she is worth it
I cannot not love the boy
He cannot love me
I cannot help the girl
She does not know that she is worth it
Im never good enough for my father
Im never good enough for my brother
I’m never good enough for my friends
I am a mere annoyance

Everyone in my life
Is so self absorbed
Or caught up in a sea of problems and
regrets
They can’t help it
Because they just can’t see,
Me.
I am alone.