tap tap tap tap tap
hands restless
mind agitated
tap tap tap tap
pencil twirls
eyes flutter
tap tap tap
something ends
back to normal, i guess
tap tap
waiting, watching, wondering
is my “normal” really “normal”? tap tap
am i going to be alright? tap tap
will my mind finally shut off for good?
will this be on the test? tap tap tap tap tap
STOP STOP STOP STOP
shut down
shut down
quiet hands quiet hands
stop tapping stop tapping you’re going to give yourself anxiety
if somebody gave me this, will they please take it back?
“you’ll be fine” they say
“just relax” they say
“take a walk. read a book. take a bath.” they say
if i could relax, i would
but i can’t
gotta go gotta go gotta go where?
always moving around never moving ahead
tap tap tap tap tap
take a sip, rub your eyes, prepare for whatever’s next
tap tap tap tap tap