I was always told I was fearless,
As if nothing in the world scared me
But what scared me the most was you.
You told me I meant everything to you
You made me special when I felt I was nothing,
You picked me up when I fell
And you told me you loved me.
But somewhere deep down inside I knew that this wasn’t going to last long
When I looked in your eyes I saw the emptiness that I wasn’t filling,
I knew you were going to get bored of me and walk out,
But what I didn’t expect was for you to just vanish,
I didn’t expect that at the dead of the night you were going to decided you didn’t need me anymore
As if I meant nothing to you.
I didn’t expect to wake up the next morning to find that the only person I cared about was gone
Just gone, and I was left with nothing but questions
What did I do wrong?
Did I not care enough?
Or was I just simply not enough?
The kind of torture he put me through was unforgiving,
But yet at 1 in the morning he was the only person I wished for,
The only person I wanted to tell me it was okay, even though it wasn’t,
I let him control me,
He dictated how I acted,
Who I trusted,
And my emotions,
But the worst part is at the end of the day I’m not mad at him,
I’m not disappointed,
I’m used to it.
I tell myself this is it,
You’re not letting him back into your life,
But like the sun,
He came back only to make me feel warm and happy,
And to leave me again at night,
Cold and scared
I was always told I was fearless,
As if nothing in the world scared me
But what scared me the most was you.
You told me I meant everything to you
You made me special when I felt I was nothing,
You picked me up when I fell
And you told me you loved me.
But somewhere deep down inside I knew that this wasn’t going to last long
When I looked in your eyes I saw the emptiness that I wasn’t filling,
I knew you were going to get bored of me and walk out,
But what I didn’t expect was for you to just vanish,
I didn’t expect that at the dead of the night you were going to decided you didn’t need me anymore
As if I meant nothing to you.
I didn’t expect to wake up the next morning to find that the only person I cared about was gone
Just gone, and I was left with nothing but questions
What did I do wrong?
Did I not care enough?
Or was I just simply not enough?
The kind of torcher he put me through was unforgiving,
But yet at 1 in the morning he was the only person I wished for,
The only person I wanted to tell me it was okay, even though it wasn’t,
I let him control me,
He dictated how I acted,
Who I trusted,
And my emotions,
But the worst part is at the end of the day I’m not mad at him,
I’m not disappointed,
I’m used to it.
I tell myself this is it,
You’re not letting him back into your life,
But like the sun,
He came back only to make me feel warm and happy,
And to leave me again at night,
Cold and scared