The ghost of you lingers on my mind
the echo of your words tangoed across my heart
this feeling of excitement of falling in love in cyberspace that you took an advantage of,
sexting without remorse or grace

A relationship that remained only below the waist,
that’s what you really wanted; your true desire
intelligent conversations that never happened.
I wonder if I will have anything left to offer

You took all the innocence that was attainable,
from the distance that we shared
I was willing to do anything
for the chance at cheap love

My sinful desire.

Your words drove my imagination wild
the touch on my skin, your fingers, lightly caressing my spine
this image in my head now leaves the urge to bile
hoping that one day, this feeling will be gone

Blinded
not realizing what was really going on
you using me;
you did not love me

The words you spoke
the lies of a man
you are 19, a man, but maybe you’re older than that
who preys on young naïve girls who are desperate for love.

I believed you when you said age didn’t matter
I’m only 14, of course I did
you treated me like a woman
my thoughts, easily dictated, you forced me to become a woman

Pictures and thoughts exchanged on a whim
something strange grew from within
intellectually stimulating every part of me
zeros and ones creating digital realities

Yet here I am, no longer imagining being in your arms
the sweetest words you could whisper in my ear
I know now, that this was only a distraction
my soul yearns for you to be erased permanently from my mind

Along with the thoughts of how your warm body would feel pressed against mine.

Nothing I do will delete
the words you wrote to me
the way you manipulated me…
the empty promises of…

Oh, I long for your demise, my internet lover!