i am supposed to follow my dreams,
i am supposed to be happy,
isn’t this what people always say?
“You are so selfish’’
“there are people with real world problems.’’
“you should be happy’’
“You have it so easy”
I have a boyfriend,
thats true,
I have a best friend,
also true,
I am accepted by my family,
that is also correct,
many people would call this happiness,
well did I forget to mention,
I am weight conscious,
I have been off and on anorexic for three years,
I have major anxiety,
I have lost many friends due to my anxiety,
I liked this guy and he liked me,
A few months later he left me for my best friend……
My grades started to collapse like dominos,
I started drinking,
I got depressed,
I smile everyday despite everything I just told you,
People around me think i am just fine,
You can look at me and tell me I have a great life and should stop complaining,
But if you know me,
Then you know I have gone through so much pain,
That I need a crane to stand me up on my two feet,
Because right now the girl I used to be has fallen straight down,
She is trying to figure out how to walk again,
If you know me,
Help me up,
If you are just watching,
You have probably had enough of my drastic series,
Judge away,
And forget about stupid old me.