I’m suffocating
I almost can’t breathe
It’s winding around my neck so tightly
I t keeps coiling and coiling
Suffocating me

I’m choking now
It hurts so much
My throat is burning
It’s a searing heat
That keeps growing and growing
Scorching me

I bite my tongue
To keep it in
To keep it chained
Inside of me

I’ve held it captive for so long
I don’t know if I’m strong enough
To hold it now
But I have to try
I hold my breathe
I count to ten
I open my mouth to tell my story
My story of courage and bravery
Of how I’ve; made a difference

But I don’t tell that story
I tell another story
A story of a girl orphaned
By jealously and hate
A story of a girl enslaved
By cold heartless creatures
A story of a girl who escaped
A story of a girl who was scared and desperate
So she did terrible things
To stay alive and survive

My body’s is shacking with retching sobs
That scorch my throat and choke me
The thing around my neck is coiling tighter
And I know
I’m not strong enough to hold it anymore
I have to let it out, to let it free
I take a deep breathe in
And let it out

The emotions and memories come rushing out
Like water breaking past a dam
I fall to the ground on my knees
And utter a strangled wail
For I have seen the girl
For what she really is

I kneel on the stage and weep
Finally letting the girl go free
She doesn’t deserve to be kept captive
Imprisoned in the depth of my mind
No

It’s been too long
She’s suffered too long
I’VE suffered too long

It’s time for me to be her
It’s time for us to be free

So I have to let go
Let go of the pain the hurt the sorrow
That now plagues my life
Let go of the anger deceit the bitterness
That I’ve been holding onto for too long
Let go of the damage the destruction the ruin
That was left in the wake of what had been
Unadulterated serenity

Let go of the vengeance the retaliation the vindication
That I had sworn to take for my family
But that is now rotting my insides

I have to retain the peace the forgiveness the tranquillity
That I had once thought I had lost
But had been hidden away by fear

I have to forgive forget and be free
But first I have to let go

I dry my tears
It’s not worth crying over
It’s the past
Not the future and certainly
Not the future

I can live now
But only if I let myself

So I get off my knees
And I try again
And still I don’t tell the story
Of the girl who made a difference
Instead I tell a story of how
I’ve finally escaped
The demons that held me

Listen world
For on this stage
I have lifted a curse
And I’m free at last