I wish I was ignorant to far from wise; that my head spins throughout portals of the mind
I wish my youth hadn't withered down so thin
I wish I dreamed of rainbows and cotton candy
I wish my Barbie's still had names and my mind never changed
I wish the sky seem like it went on forever in it's perky blue
I wish I never turn jaded
I wish I never understood
I wish my hands never touch reality as It wailed over its pass live's
I wish that bundle of joy never grew up to only fear growth
I wish I was still a child bouncing on the concrete run ways
that I foreseen my future filled with green
I wish I never pouted over stupid things
I wish heaven and hell hadn't created me
I wish time was a mist thought that never truly became a memory
I wish so many thing
I wish so many paper thin thoughts that have burnt with things called chemistry
I miss peace
I miss harmony
and as I think back I finally see

all those spoken words
where just fears that echoed throw space
thus I've lived with these synonyms and antonyms
they've created my well being: I realize I'm sink...
I wish...I wish like a pastel painted dream
I wish like a sinner with hope
I wish like the desert with no rain or snow
I sway like a mad man in a silenced dream; I dream ,
whisper false truths that create black magic; wicked and mean
I sway...
and I pray cause wishes never come true...
I wish to the stupid star that gleam in the pitch black forest of gloom
I wish to the lord that saved saving grace
I wish to my mother who played the fool
I wish to my brothers who play it safe
I wished to my grandmother who has found death wall; still breathing  ...
I wish to that child still stuck; transfixed with a unrealistic meaning