It wasn't direct

It was hidden in your actions

You never wanted to stay in

You never wanted to just hang out

You never wanted to enjoy the simpler things:

The leaves as they fall

The trees as they sway

The sun as it sets

You only wanted to go out

To a restauraunt

To a movie

To a store

But now all I can hear you saying is

"Money buys my happiness"

Then happiness must be dead

Because real happiness can't be bought

See, I had money

But i took it for granted

I thought it would always be around

I thought as long as I didn't spend too much, it was ok

I was spending just to spend

Spending because I could; not because I should

Spending to fulfill wants and not needs

Always spending

I was happy

Kind of

That changed when we had to file for unemployment

They said not to worry

They said we'd be fine

But things weren't fine

I was not fine

I was stessed and I was worried

Then I remembered who holds my future

He carries a rod and a staff and He tells me not to be afraid

So I decided to trust Him

And I realized that things could be so much worse

We still live a good life-

A comfortable life

Which is not the case for most

From that point on, I was changed

I am a different kind of happy

A happy that doesn't rely on money

A happy that doesn't always need to go out

A happy that comes from small things

A happy that is content with life

A better happy