i think of you
and i think
gentle things
soft collarbones
your skin pressing
into mine
when i ran into your arms
with red puffy eyes
you never said
“forever”
you said
“hopefully a long time”
i cant even be mad
that you
broke a promise
you left me once
when you couldnt
bare to hold me
anymore
and when you came back
the first time
you held me on the couch
and the first time you touched me again
you said
“i missed this”
i miss this
dont you understand
that if you came back
it would be the impossible
happening twice
sometimes i look at you
and i think
in another life we got it right
somewhere else we are
happy
i only listen to the songs
we used to sing
in the car
when im driving
sometimes i find myself
taking the long way home
so i pass your house
and wish you were
in my car
you said you were getting tired
but ive been tired forever
i just wanted to
watch you get ready
for the rest of our lives
i cant think
about the way you
held me when you slept
and how
you are going to do the same thing
to someone else
and i want nothing more
than to be that person
all that you have to do is say
that youre sorry
for breaking me
in two
i know you didnt love me
but maybe you could
if we tried again
i could tell you anything
i could tell you all
about who ive been
and i want to hear
about the people
you used to be
but to you i was
nothing important
but i promised
i would give you
my everything