Something was off that night,
A feeling in my stomach I couldn’t shake
So I just played along put on the fake smile that was so familiar to me
Worn out afraid I knew it couldn't hang on for long
With everyone else getting ready to count down
But I just focused on the fact that he wasn't here
I looked around the dark room till I saw him in the corner of my eye
Hugging that bottle tight
I didn't wanna see it so I looked away for a brief moment
Shut my eyes as the room went silent
But then a loud thump crawled in my ear, an engine roared at me
I looked again, the room it was empty
My legs took control and tried to chase
I ran as fast as could I swear
But my legs were too little too weak
Too weak to keep going
The foggy red lights escape my hold
I stood there wiping my wet face
What if I was stronger
What if I was faster
What if my screams were louder
Would it have changed anything I thought as the lights were no longer in sight and I was alone
And I gazed at my watch as the time hit midnight
Happy New Year.