I’m from the stereotypical start consisting of ballet classes, soccer fields, and gymnastics
From the childhood of taunting and jabs
Because I was different from the other kids, always taller and bigger than everyone else
From sadness and sleep deprivation, up until ungodly hours with the inability to quiet thoughts
I’m from heartbreak after heartbreak, rejection, and walls being built up
Higher and higher, with the inability to let people in
I’m from “never being good enough” and “won’t ever be successful”
From remembering my grandmother’s house as a place of shelter, one of the happiest places in my life
To now, the tainted place of anger and fights with my mother
From taking solace in staying at a friend’s house, that being more of a home than my own
I’m from hardships and struggles, but never allowing myself to be brought down
Always persevering
Always pushing
Always trying to achieve my goals and dreams
I’m from knowing that one day, I’ll get out
I’ll be able to leave all the yelling and arguments behind
Find a place to my own, make it a home
I’m from knowing that it’s only up from here, and one day, I’ll be okay
One day, I’ll be happy
One day, I won’t be alone as I have been since I came to be
Where I’m from is a dark and sad place, with demons and devils, haunting in the night
Sleepless nights filled with anxiety and sorrow
An omnipresent weight on my shoulders
But that will never define the amazing places that I am going to go