The fear in my body could never compare to the fear in her eyes
To see her own daughter panicking, scared that she will die
Scared that her mother is seeing her this way
Want to tell her to leave, but need her to stay

Calm down, calm down. She says as she hugs me
I concentrate on her words as I concentrate on my breathing
My heart is rapidly beating.

I hate you, anxiety
So selfish you are
That will always be in her head, engraved like a scar
You make me sick, the way you don’t care
I want you gone, you’re so unfair

You are now nothing to me
I feared the day she saw me like that
And now that it happened,
I can’t take it back

The thoughts you give me
They’re nightmarish and real
You make me panic and cry
Can’t explain what I feel

My mission now
Is to get you out
To keep you out
Only then, I’ll be free
From all these ugly thoughts
I hate you, anxiety