My tears hit the pillow beneath me. My body tense and shaking. I close my eyes and know that it's not over.
I hear the footsteps and my heart starts to pound. Closer they come. I pull the covers up and pretend to be alseep.
They don't care.
They come in anyways.
My breathing is rapid and they can sense my fear. They grab my arm and drag me out of my bed.
I beg them to calm down and promise that I'll be a good girl.
Smack.
Not good enough.
Smack.
Trash is what you are.
Smack.
I never loved you.
Smack.
No one can ever save you.
Smack. Smack. Smack.
They look me in my eyes. They see I'm scared, but they don't see what I'm thinking.
I love you.
Help.
I still look up to you.
Help.
I won't tell anyone.
Help.
You'll change one day.
Help.
They push me aside and close my door.
I crawl under the covers and touch my face with my icy fingers.
I close my eyes and I fall.
Down to where there is nothing and no one.
Down to where I die.
I am lost. Lost. Lost.
I open my eyes. Today is a new day. Time to do it over again. I love you. Help.