I wish that I could say

That I remember what it was like

The last time we kissed.

I wish I remembered

The way your blue eyes

Stared into mine.

I don't even remember

The last time I hugged you

Or the way it felt

The last time

We

Held

Hands.

I don't remember these things

Because I was never thinking in lasts.

I never anticipated that there would be a last

With you.

I thought we were it.

But I do remember firsts.

The first time you kissed me,

And how your lips felt

Pressed against mine.

I remember we were laying on my bed

Listening to records

And it took you forever

But when you finally kissed me

There were fireworks.

And I remember it took you

A week and a half

To finally ask me out.

I remember you being there for me

For everything.

I remember the way

You used to tap my hands

Like you were playing bass.

I remember when you stopped.

I remember how much I loved you.

I remember how much I still love you.

Why can't I forget?