Memories are slowly fading.
I try with all I have to have a stronger grip,
but it seems as if the harder I squeeze
the more it slips like water through my hands.
I see your face
That always, always smiling face,
Then it fades into the background.
Somedays I forget, then I feel guilty,
I forgot her birthday,
Then the next day I thought of her as much
As I can to make up what I did.
I think to myself,
I should have did more, I should have gotten her
More water when she asked without feeling annoyed
Instead of thinking of myself,
and feeding myself with false hope
By saying “You’re not going anywhere,”

Sometimes my mind go back to that
Unmarked territory, you in the hospital,
I see you not being able to talk
I see you too weak to write down what you want to say,
I see you. Frustrated that nobody at times can’t understand you
Even though I know you’re in a much better place,
In fact I should be jealous,
But I still miss you