You know It's crazy to me.

Growing up these 18 years & I already have a saying I repeat.

"Remain unavoidably determined to prevent a continuous loop of year after year incertitude."

That's what I believe.

Like all stories go

Growing up, I had nothing to do -- but cool --- up in my room, from noon to noon.

Eyes on the tv; Shootin these zombies

With my boys behind me

Screaming  "NOTHING CAN STOP MEE!"

Then BOOM. A shot to the back

& mad at the fact my life ended like that. The end -- just like death.

Because after death -- you don't come back

That was only a game -- reality isn't the same.

A shot to the back or a shot to the brain.
- that's game. no replays..

After effects leave your family in pain.

Cause of gangs -- A lost cause with a tooly -- A fooly -- A dude who wants nothing but money and booty.

Excuse me, If I came off as agitated or aggravated that the adolescents in these streets don't even try to make it.

*pause*

That's crazy...

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So I constantly give myself & friends a reality check.

Checking to make sure we don't condone ourselves to peer pressure or the stress.

So here I am -- A Senior with a ponderous mentally of those same old questions.

What will I be?
Who will I become?
How will I do it?

Growing up these 18 years, I still have no idea on what I like the most.

Whether It be gaming, tech, or the clothes -- I don't know.

Or do I switch It up.

ALRIGHT MOM, MILITARY I GO! --- NO

I'm not ready to take on such a role.

So I take a strollll -- walks In the neighborhood,

yeah everything's good,

laid out the way It should.

So I remain vigilant,

on guard for my moment, knowing there isn't a way of success without  a risk in it.

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Growing up to where I am now,

I vibe It out

A little saying I usually say.

Remain nonchalant, do good deeds & remember to pray.

So I can play

One day with all the gadgets they make today.

from cars to clothes or tv's on display

Or the fact that I can help my family outta situations I can't help them with today.

One day -- It'll come -- one day

A life I wish to live

A family of my own -- hoping they stay

throughout struggles & pain,

Friends the same -- hoping they remain,

So we all come out on top - one day.

But for now we grow -- grow & live through the days that are to come.

High school for us is almost done.

So we needa live it up now -- have our fun.

* laughs *

It's not forever we stay young.