I can't keep you away from me mentally, and physically. Im swimming through my thoughts trying not to think of you but you're hammered into my head and i cant seem to unscrew it out. Im stuck. Stuck in my own depressed thoughts trying to escape every minute and every second.

And when i think I've raced myself out, on my way to happiness, i realize that Im exactly where i started. Its like difficult maze. Make one turn and you find yourself at a “dead end”. Like when you're driving and you notice the yellow, eye catching “Dead End” sign . Its a sign that happiness does not want to be found. Its hiding and the only thing i truly find at the end of the maze is sorrow. Or even worse, dreary .