In my mind, I believed you hurt me.
Realistically, it didn't make sense.
It was my own fault and I became broken.
By setting expectations too high for you to reach.

I felt lead on met by tribulations.
I felt I could trust you until you betrayed me.
In the end, I have to wonder: who is to blame for all my despair?
Is it the boy I thought I knew or is it me for creating my fate?

It didn't help when I got insulted.
Up, down, left, and right
It made me impulsive.
We said words we didn't mean.
And others weren't spoken.
Who are we kidding?
I guess we're both broken.

I lay in bed thinking "where did I go wrong?"
"What could've been done to save me this pain?"

Trembling and crying, anxiety rising
I remember the nights when you held me tight.
Nothing else mattered.
It was just us. Always and forever.
To take on the world and never say never.

Once in a while I think of our times.
I have to remind myself I am not yours and you are not mine.

All I think of is you.
Our past and memories will always be there.
Was it you, could've been me.
Maybe it was both of us and we won't be free.
Possibly, in your mind, I was just some girl.
Did it ever occur to you that I am worth more?
I am a person. I have feelings and needs.
They have a right to be protected.
And never messed with because of you.
I'm only human.
All I wanted was you.
Continuously I'm told I'm better off.
I gave it all.
I gave it to you.
All for the boy I thought I knew.

You lied and made me believe we were more.
When it was all in my dreams.
It's taken some time.
But I've finally realized,
Someone like you isn't worth all my tears.

I should've known but I trusted my heart.
Maybe you're different, I said.
I was blinded by my love for you.
Against my better judgement, I chose you.

All of my life, my mom has told me,
To always use protection.
At first, I thought she only meant physically.
Soon enough, I realized she meant emotionally too.
People talk about physical risks.
But did they ever think to warn us about emotionally too?

All I have now is the memory of you.
The sorrow and pain that I've endured.
Will soon be conquered by my undying nerve.
I want to let go and move on.
But I simply just can't.
Because of that hope that maybe one day you could love me as much as I do.

Please just tell me if what I'm feeling is true.
Because if it's not, I will let go of you.

In the beginning, you talked about how you wouldn't ever hurt me, but here we are now.
That lie I believed and ever since then, I recreate what we could've been.

To you, it seems that this isn't real.
I've wasted my time used all my effort,
All for the boy I thought I knew.