"Are you alright?"
"Yes I'm fine."
Always the same question
Always the same reply
Which means it always add up
To the exact same lie
For that, I am sorry

I'm sorry
I didn't want to entangle you
In this dangerous web I have been weaving
I'm sorry I didn't want to drag you down with me
I didn't want you stumble through this darkness
Calling out for help and no one is going to answer
Because there is no one around that cares
I'm sorry I didn't want this to be you

I'm sorry for the fake smile I wear everyday
For if you pull away the mask
You'll find sadness swimming in my brown eyes
I'm sorry I lie to you
I just don't want you to lose sleep worrying about me
I don't want you to sit up
As you struggle to compose a message
Asking me, begging me to make it through the night
I'm sorry I didn't want you to wake up with terror in your eyes
As you scramble to find your phone and give me a call
Praying I'll answer so you know I'm alright

I'm sorry
For if you pull up my sleeves
You'll discover the scars and slices etched deep within my skin
The blade that's created them hides in the lost pages of a dusty book
I'm sorry I hide this from you
I just don't want to see your grieve stricken face
As you catch sight of the monstrous things I inflict upon myself

I'm sorry that I'm not recovering
I am trying honestly
I feel progress being made because I can look at you and smile a smile that's almost real
So please be patient with me
I'm sorry I can't let you in
Cannot tell you the reason I block you out

I'm sorry I'm not a perfect girl
However I am a broken girl
With broken dreams and ambitions that fly as high as the rockets through the stars that I see in your eyes
With dreams of reaching the top of this mountain and overcoming something
That so many die trying to get to where I am

And yes I am proud to be this girl
This damaged girl with the beautifully tragic story
A story that the world needs to hear so somebody else like me
Might understand that they're not alone
And if you can accept this
If you can't understand this
Then I'm sorry