Am I in love?
How does anyone know when they’re in love?
I’ve never been in love, but could this be it?
I know I want to say it.
I want to yell it from the rooftops that I love him.
But do I?
Do I know what love is?
I don’t know.
Here’s what I do know.
I miss him when he is not with me.
My heart hurts when we leave each other’s side.
I look at a picture of him every night before I fall asleep because it allows me to end the day smiling.
He makes me happy.
He makes me happier than I’ve ever been.
I want nothing more than to be next to him.
Is that love?
I don’t know.
Here’s what I do know.
What I feel is strong.
It’s overpowering and terrifying and beautiful.
It stresses me out and brings me comfort.
Is it too fast?
Am I too careless with the word?
Will I scare him off?
I don’t know.
Here’s what I do know.
I never knew how it felt to have your heart hurt.
I never knew how it felt to have one person bring you so much comfort.
I never knew how hard distance could be when being close to someone meant that much.
I never knew.
But I know now.