why did i put this off till the last minute?

why did i put this into my mind?

why did i put this on to list of: things that physically hurt me?

why did i think this would do itself?

why did i think that apologizing to you would extend my deadline?

why did i think you would accept me and help me with my crisis of time management?

why did i hold this piece of paper so close to me?

why did i hold this hope so close to me?

why did i hold this problem like a piece of rag?

why did you try to hurt me?

why did you try to blame me?

why did you try to disrupt the feelings of love i held for you?

why did you tell me i was wrong?

why did you tell me i was too sad?

why did you tell me i was obnoxious?

why did you keep me far away?

why did you keep me for you?

why did you keep me fearing i would lose you?

i’m not a procrastinator
but give me one second,
i’m not done yet.