the walls are closing in,

I cannot breathe.

I have a huge lump in my throat

all because of thoughts

and other people's opinions.

my vision starts to get blurry,

and soon I can hardly see anything.

I taste the saltiness of my tears

as they fall one by one

down my cheek.

I want to scream

and yell hoping someone will listen.

someone that understands me,

someone that won't say, "I understand,"

when they haven't felt so worthless before.

the tears keep falling

like a powerful storm in April.

I lay down

and try to sleep.

once I hit that pillow,

the tears soak it.

I must keep quiet

or the demons will jolt

right out of my mouth.

I feel so alone,

so worthless,

so insecure,

and I wonder why I was

put on this earth in the first place.

the lump has gone away

the blurriness has finally disappeared

I no longer taste the saltiness of my tears

I no longer have the urge to scream and yell.

I no longer have to worry about people not understanding me

I no longer feel so alone,

or worthless,

or insecure.

I finally let go and I've never felt so free.