I have slept in what might be the most uncomfortable mattress ever.

For the past couple of months I've remained unable to get a blink of sleep.

I toss and turn like an ocean, tears flowing down my face like a stream.

Nothing is right anymore, my bed has completely broken.

But when I was with her, every last underlining detail of my life was complete.

After every day, no matter the challenge, I could retire to my bed

And be able to feel nothing but pure bliss curling up next to her.

And it is the feeling that nothing else matters I miss the most.

After every punishing day of my miserable life

There was an angel that would wait for me at the end of it, and I can't live without her.

I miss finishing up a messy dinner, leaving the kitchen astray

Just to fall under the covers with her.

I miss her soft breath against my cheek when she would tell me goodnight

And that she loved me.

I miss the feeling of her cold legs as she would wrap them around me.

I miss the days that would end in an argument, only to be healed and forgotten in sleep.

It seemed like I had nothing when she left.

I couldn't sleep, paralyzed in my own thoughts every night.

Nothing was right, my bed had completely broken.

But recently I found another person.

Someone to let close to my wounded body.

And I can't help but to forget the past with her, even if it's a slow heal.

She is different, and it makes me wonder.

And tonight I let her get close.

Tonight I found myself falling asleep with her, and it felt - right.

As difficult as it has been to let go, she has given me hope.

She's given me love.

She has given me something unique and different.

She makes me laugh in new ways

And she makes me feel things differently

And tonight she fixed my mattress.

My bed is no longer broken.

And I couldn't feel any happier.