I want to talk about how tired I am
How the constant yapping of your voice makes me hate a human’s voice
How someone can’t understand the repetitive shouting of “STOP!”
I am tired of endless, pointless lectures that drag on like a blanket

I want to talk about depression
How it silently crept into my body like the Ebola virus
How somber it turned my mindset
How I don’t need to be diagnosed because I know I’m infected
Depression disturbs me emotionally, mentally, and physically.
My body rejects dopamine
Feeling hopeless,
I take a step back and I feel like I’m gonna fall of a cliff
I take a step forward and I hit a brick wall

I want to talk about isolation
How a crowd of people can make me feel so alone
How laughing voices pierce my ears like blades,
Chopping off hair.
How the laughs ring continuously,
Pounding my skull, screaming to be set free

I want to talk about darkness
How a burning candle can be blown out with just one breath
How the dark caresses me and makes me feel comfortable when the light blinds me
How monsters and demons are hallucinations.
Darkness can be calming,
Peaceful,
Like the ice blue sky.

I want to talk about sadness
How everyone can be sad
How real sadness causes physical pain
How it feels like my heart is being squeezed through my esophagus.
My chest, deflated by the needle of sadness.
My eyes, burn with salty tears, blurring my vision until it is filled with doubt.

I want to talk about thoughts
How thoughts cause thunderstorms on cool spring days.
How they are so powerful, restricting my ability to see reality.
How thoughts trigger depression,
Trigger isolation,
Trigger darkness,
Trigger sadness.