I heard the news

Those words were knives that left scars

If truth be told I never really was strong

It broke me

But I know you are happier now

You were a beautiful soul

I could see it in your eyes in the brief times we were together

You and I didn't know eachother very well

But I sure did love you

I hope you are happy with your wife

Now you two can finally be together

That day that the news was given to me

I cried so much

For you

For me

I lost you

I cried even though we weren't that close

My heart felt like it was being squeezed, ripped, crushed all at the same time

Not that long ago you were hugging me and I was hugging you

My chest felt like it had an elephant sitting on it

My breathing was labored

Everybody acted differently around me afterwards

THey chose their words carefully

Had looks of sympathy and pity tossed my way

I didn't want that

Especially from them

I needed their support

To get me smiling again

Not reminding me of it

I heard the news and I regret not spending more time with you