Why did I ever try to listen to him,
The countless lies told over and over again,
The constant love you, followed with a grim,
Sometimes I wonder if I was ever sane then.

It felt like I was more cold and alone,
Like a hundred darts flew into my heart,
Little did I know I wasn’t prepared,
More did I wish that I could just restart.

All the countless nights of nothing but tears,
Wishing I could just have you once more,
Nothing in my gut feeling but more fear,
Wishing not to feel this way anymore.

Did nothing but run from the denial,
Nothing ever killed me more then that smile.