BUILDING

I build my tower on blocks of pain
Every tear is a step I gain
I’m reaching for something that will never be there
Blindly building cause up I dare
and down I couldn’t bear

Why do we ever build ourselves up
Knowing there’s always one more step
And if we jump, we over-exceed
We fall to the bottom in a rage of greed
I just hope I don’t bleed

I’m looking for something that will never be there
The thief has stolen my breathless air
Nothing is gone, but nothing is here
Congeal the pain of all that’s dear
It’s nothing I fear

Who am I to miss my mark
To cut the light and love the dark
My calling’s here, the times allow
Footless imprints, plough less cow
Take the jump now

I climb the walls that I create
Pain cement stabilizes hate
I'm scared of height, but I don't care
Reach new levels, up I dare
and down I couldn't bear

I walk the path that they created
They hand me a shovel to walls that are plated
If destiny has always been known
Then what's control, what's my own
Am I alone

My confidence grows to be shot down
An imperfection, a careless frown
If one thing’s true, one thing of all
It's the bigger you are the harder you fall
So I stay small

I throw my rope, I pick my axe
I’m climbing far, I’m climbing fast
My thoughts evade the painful sincerity
I overextend in an illusion of clarity
and fall down, over temerity

I build my tower on blocks of pain
Every tear is a step I gain
I’m reaching for something that will never be there
Blindly building cause up I dare
and down I couldn’t bear