Frozen and cold,
I step inside, pulling the rigid door
with my fragile fingers.
Stumbling forward, two separate parts,
I feel nothing except sheer pain.

I scramble to do whatever I can,
to get rid of this stinging feeling.
The numbness takes over my body.
I feel like I am losing control.

All I want is relief.
Relief from the agony I put myself through,
every day.
The erratic discomfort pierces underneath me,
Unsure of what to do, I look for anything to sit on.

I try to use my senseless fingers,
four clicks later, and one rip.
It falls to the floor.
The pain is gone.

Why do I do this every day?
It reminds me of what today has brought me.
Everything leads up to this point.
I enjoy it.