How can you be so selfish?

How can I be so selfless?

Its a shame you dont share

I try not to stare.

Uneasiness in the pit of

My stomache.

Wanting to pry open your

Arms and embrace myself

Give you all that I have

All love and no loathing

All hurt healed

All present past

How can you be so selfish?

Not understanding your state

Not here for my sake

The stakes are high and

Im ready to break down

While no ones around.

Face in the pillow

While the screams are un-a-tameable

Fustration, hurt not on just my side

This I can tell

But its whatever right?

Even though you say it is

Its not

Hiding is never the answer.

Hiding is what you do best

It destroys you.

Open yourself up for once

To one who has all understanding while

No one else wants to hear it

I will be here to hear you.

Loyalty and respect turns into

Regret.

How can I be so selfless?