No one knows how hard I've tried..
To mean something
To feel alive...
I wonder what it's like to love your life
For one day to not have to want to reach for the knife
No one knows how confused I am
I want to love, but I need the hate.
I want to be free, but I've bitten the bait.
Trapped inside myself... I do believe...
Everything I've ever lost has made a monster of me.
Dragged into a tunnel, down on my knees.
I've been picked up and I've been let be.
How painful it's been; no one can see.
How much time I've buried
How I'll be the death of me ~