I put up a wall 

It's there all the time

I wait for someone to notice

I neeed someone to realize

To realize that my smile is fake

My happiness is a lie

And my laughter is a cover

I need someone to know

Deep down, I'm in pain

Deep down, I want to cry

The words I pretend to ignore

They really leave cuts

Cuts so deep they might scar

Each time you see me shrug it off 

Each time you hear me laugh along

I really need a knowing friend

I need a voice

to tell me it's ok

I need a pair of arms 

to wrap me up and hold me tight

Maybe you will never know

Maybe you already should

My pain is real

My smile is not.