crazy | Teen Ink


December 8, 2014
By azurelove GOLD, Columbus, Ohio
azurelove GOLD, Columbus, Ohio
18 articles 3 photos 21 comments

i think i'm losing myself
no one is seeming to notice
hanging over that cliff of
constant blankness,sliding
into the endless dark
its a soft blanket down here
i am okay until i come to
but even then
i open my eyes with a
smile,before realizing
i am back to reality
how no one notices its not
walking around in this body
i don't know
i could warn them
when i start feeling dizzy,
and unreasonably sleepy
when it all feels
wonderfully surreal
and for an odd moment
i am floating
not even here
looking at myself from the
a new point of view brought
to light
when i know what i'm doing
but cant bring myself to
to make the right decision
but its like i'm not even
when i think i'm sitting
perfectly still
but then see the edges of
my shadow i catch a chill
i realize i'm rocking
back & forth,back & forth
impossibly small
incredibly slow
these are the lost moments,
although i am still here
are the last seconds
i am fully aware.

The author's comments:

i am being questioned on my sanity....

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azurelove GOLD said...
on Dec. 15 2014 at 1:04 pm
azurelove GOLD, Columbus, Ohio
18 articles 3 photos 21 comments
why thank you

on Dec. 14 2014 at 3:21 pm
ansem_unlimited PLATINUM, Frederick, Maryland
33 articles 0 photos 140 comments

Favorite Quote:
Thou may think of me as desired, to idolize or villanize me whichever you may choose. but gaze upon me and thou sall not see the husk of a man! for all my sins and all my bliss, i am anything but hollow

found it! the link you gave me didn't work so it took a bit of searching... this is a very self observant poem. I can actually relate to the feeling of sureal hazyness. like the deeper you look the more questions you find, & the wider you open your eyes the less you know... this idea of trying to lookthrough the looking glass & see yourself is so vexing, it's this nagging anxiety that nips at your neck over & over again. but i digress. you display your point elagently. pretty good.  

azurelove GOLD said...
on Dec. 11 2014 at 1:24 pm
azurelove GOLD, Columbus, Ohio
18 articles 3 photos 21 comments