I’m Okay

Those words you say,
Like a dagger into my plastered heart.
And I don’t even think I had time to cry.
I told you a billion times,
I cannot fly.
But you were pushing me,
telling me to try.
You pinned me down,
My eyes fixated on the night sky.
In the distance, I think I was watching the sunrise.
Then everything turned black.
All the pain was gone,
The race was on.
The thrill ran out.
I didn’t even know what this was about.
All the years,
All the tears.
They say I’m forever alone.
But they never even knew you were here.
Before I even knew,
You were all gone.
Washed away.
Well go ahead,
Take my heart.
Put it in that place.
Put it on display,
That glass case,
I’m totally okay.
Just show the world.
Cause yes I wanted to be that girl.
More or less,
No or yes,
Put me at rest.
I’ve never been so stressed,
Let’s just call it depressed.
They say they’re unimpressed.
It just made you go from the best,
To second best.
I would say you’re an unwelcomed guest.
But my lies could be used for better than that.
Just place me under arrest.
Please tell me you’re better than them.
While talking about you,
I never want to say, I used to know’em.
I don’t want to say, I loved’em.
I just want to be released,
Say I’m free.
This unbearable lease I’ve signed.
But in this moment,
The time went forward.
The lights are passing by,
So bright it all turns white.
The streams of the different colors,
Going by too fast to be recognizable.
The never ending portal,
That just seems to stop.
The rotten plots made by the un-loyal.
The Moloch hidden in your average everyday places.
Being caught between your self-feuds.
Tell me the truth,
What have you got to lose?
I just saw it.
Out the corner of my eye,
The time can bend,
The time can turn.
Enough of this.
I think it’s your turn.
You will not be burned,
No cremation for this beautiful creature,
The one with the distinct features.
Don’t you chance my plastered mind.
You are completely intoxicated.
In this place,
Where you think you are infinite.
How dare you leave me?
I’ve stayed for you,
But I guess you can’t handle the truth.
You say it broke,
But I saw you cut the chain loose.
You pushed me away.
You said you were here to say.
When my heart broke,
I couldn’t even feel it,
The numb came over it,
And as it shattered,
It fell right back into place.
And I will never understand,
But now I can’t stand,
I can’t even move.
You’ve paralyzed me.
Now I’m powerful.
My spirit arose,
There I saw my broken soul.
None of the pieces could ever make a whole again.
Don’t make me drown again.
Don’t push me to the ground again.
How do you keep filling that red ink pen?
You were out of ink again.
Just say that your life is perfect.
No, just call it pretend.
You win, okay.
I’m telling you again.
Don’t worry about me I’m fine.
You’re the only person here,
That committed a crime.
I stared at the line,
The pathway I used to walk down every day.
You took that away from me.
Why did you send that hate my way?
Why did you paralyze me?
You made me believe you were true,
You pushed me down,
And I’m turning red not blue.
I’m furious.
I’m tired of being sad,
And you’re sick.
You laugh when I cry.
I’ve tried to ask you why
But you said I’m just here
Like it’s not real life.
You hold the knife.
Say it’s a metaphor,
I can’t wait anymore.
I’m done
It’s over.
It’s way too much to bear.
Why are you so easily scared?
Oh, to see you cry is so rare,
But not unlikely,
Like I care.
If you cry me an ocean,
I’ll just build a dam,
And try not to start it over again.