Moving from another country,

Sounds exciting right?
Not the least little bit.
Torture
Is an understatement.
Feeling lost
Afraid,
Like someone threw you into the deepest,
darkest hole.
Confused to why me,
Why do I have to leave my family
Why not someone else?
Why do I have to go through the pain
The suffering
The continous battle of trying to fit in.
Pretending to be happy
The fake smile on my face everyday
Hiding the pain from my parents
Acting like everything was fine
When all it did was eat me up inside
The thought of having to go back to school
Every morning
Pretending
To fit in,
Trying to make friends
Arent you suppose to be under the spotlight for being “foreign”
Walking in the hallways
Feeling like the walls were closing in on me
Hearing; “there’s Africa girl’
“shes so weird”
Excuse me
Who are you to judge
What have i done
To deserve to be treated this way
Was i not “social” enough?
Pretty enough?
Not up to “american” standards?
The perception everyone got from someone being from “africa”
The “oh my god”
Types of looks i got everyday
Sitting in class and hearing
“if you're from africa, then why are you white?”
What have you done
Making me move halfway across the world
To live a nightmare
To cause me pain
To be way from my family
The anger
Frustration against you
Will to this day not change.