I worry each day,

Whos going to make me a new name?
Am I going to get beat up?
All the words spin in my head like a globe.

I worry each second,
Whos gonna trip me?
Whos gonna take my stuff
All the feelings jumble in my heart like a knot.

I race to each class,
Did they see me?
Are they talking about me?
All the emotions get bottled up.

That bottle breaks,
shatters into a million pieces,
emotions fly into non-existence.

They push me down,
beat me up,
tears flow like a raging dam thats been held for too long.

I run into an open field,
scream until I can’t anymore,
break more and more inside.

I see the shiny metal,
I let it dance across my pale skin,
I see past scars and re-open wounds I wish I hadn’t.

I bleed out,
I'm gone.