The world has lost it's luster
I remember it from when I was young
When every day was a new adventure
It was the ignorance of youth

The sunsets were juicy and purple
Like sweet plums on hot summer nights
I prided myself for the dirt on my skin
It bragged I had been somewhere

Even the stars meant something
A special secret for the universe to keep
And I admired them all just the same
Sparkling only for me

I grew up hopeful
Wishes gave way to maxi pads and lipstick
And I thought the world was still beautiful
Beautiful and still pretty just for me

My delusion was shattered with harsh words
Words from everyone around me
They screamed that it wasn't the world that should be pretty
It was me

But I didn't fit the definition
My Thighs were too big and my skin was too red
I wanted the world to be beautiful again
So I fixed it

medication helped me cleanse the crimson
And shaving got rid of the hair
The hardest part of beauty
Was starving myself until I was skinny enough

But everyone said that beauty could never be too skinny
So I kept going, hoping someday I'd see luster in the world again
And I think I might have caught a glimpse of it
In protruding ribs and yellowed teeth


As I died in no ones arms