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When I Look Inside MAG

December 8, 2008
By Jesssssssss BRONZE, Sunnyside, Washington
Jesssssssss BRONZE, Sunnyside, Washington
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I wish to have been born a cloud

But I was conceived by humans,
Wearing a skin of flaws
The philosophers say
You have to look inside yourself to find the answers
So I slide into my throat

I float around, amazed at my internal organs

Cells whisper
Into my ears,
Reminding me of who I’m not
I crawl away into my heart and I find a desk and chair,
So I try to write a letter,
Ease the pain of thoughts
But the ink crawls up my skin,
Tattooing me in thorny scrawls
I try to run away,
Veins wrap around my arms
I try to push the door open
But it pushes right back
So I wrap my arms around my knees
And I just sit there and I scream
The pounding of my heart gets louder
Like a toddler beating a drum
So loud is that drum,
I have to unwrap my arms and cover my ears
I stop screaming and scrunch my face in anguish
I think that toddler is mighty strong
And then it gets quiet
It’s like I’m in the center of a jellyfish ­umbrella
And I just sit

Half awed
Half afraid
Because I know,
No matter how long I sit there,
I’m never going to find out who I am

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This article has 19 comments.

OldYoungOne said...
on Nov. 26 2012 at 9:30 pm
Raw emotion

on Dec. 17 2011 at 7:34 pm
Jrbcrazygirl SILVER, Lakeside, Texas
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I love it, I know lots of people feel this way and your poem says it in a beautifully touching way

Kayte BRONZE said...
on Oct. 15 2011 at 10:06 am
Kayte BRONZE, Sandy, Utah
3 articles 0 photos 6 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Be the living expression of God's kindness: kindness in your face, kindness in your eyes, kindness in your smile."
-Mother Teresa

This is ansolutely beautiful!! So original and so touching. I'm relieved to know I'm not alone in my battle for identity.

jlw11 SILVER said...
on Mar. 21 2011 at 1:34 pm
jlw11 SILVER, Fayette, Alabama
5 articles 2 photos 26 comments

Favorite Quote:
"The only things in life you regret, are the risks that you never take."

This was really great. The way you used the words and captured the details of everything you came into contact with was just amazing!

on Feb. 8 2011 at 12:07 pm
Mortie PLATINUM, Oak Run, California
31 articles 0 photos 74 comments

Favorite Quote:
Whats The Point?

wow. all i con think to say iw wow. wow.

meggers SILVER said...
on May. 19 2010 at 11:09 am
meggers SILVER, San Angelo, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
if u cant say something nice then dont say anything at all

its different i lke it

on Apr. 3 2010 at 11:48 pm
neonknight01 SILVER, Madison, Mississippi
8 articles 0 photos 4 comments

Favorite Quote:
to each, his own.

haha veddy nice! and original too!

on Mar. 13 2010 at 4:04 pm
sonnysulouff BRONZE, Clarendon Hills, Illinois
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Beautiful. Such a creative and interesting way to relate to everyone. Love it.

on Jan. 15 2010 at 3:20 pm
Tamara*Monta BRONZE, Warren, Texas
4 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
never regret sompthing that once made u smile

verry unique and creative... I absolutley love it. Great job... Mabey youl could help me critike mine

on Jan. 8 2010 at 8:27 pm
silent-one BRONZE, Chicago, Illinois
4 articles 0 photos 18 comments

Favorite Quote:
things arent always as they seem.

i love the feeling of curiosity in this poem. investigating yourself. the imagery was excellent!!!!

on Jan. 4 2010 at 10:02 pm
life_of_a_leaf PLATINUM, Morris Plains, New Jersey
22 articles 0 photos 19 comments

Favorite Quote:
"We're all just kids who grew up way too fast" - The Cab

this is the most creative figurative language i have even seen. excellent poem.

AnneW SILVER said...
on Dec. 30 2009 at 1:28 am
AnneW SILVER, Santa Clara, California
8 articles 1 photo 20 comments
I absolutely love it. You grabbed my attention from the very beginning and held it to the last word. Very nice job! You deserve to have this published. Keep writing, I cannot wait to read more

Rage97 GOLD said...
on Nov. 28 2009 at 10:55 am
Rage97 GOLD, Hughesville, Maryland
16 articles 0 photos 18 comments

Favorite Quote:
" 3 out of 2 people have problems with fractions"
" History will be kind to me, for I intend to write it"

This poem is absolutley wonderful, it is like you were talking about myself to the T. I am new to teen ink and I was wondering if you could look at some of my work one is: I tryed thanks with love!!!!

on Nov. 5 2009 at 2:58 pm
AbbotRabbit GOLD, Abolana, District Of Columbia
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Favorite Quote:
This poem has great flow and insight.
I really enjoyed it.
Lovely poem darling =]
-Please check out the works that I have posted on here it would be highly appreciated and I think you would greatly enjoy them, Thankk youz-
XxIll tell you Im an orphan after you meet myy familyXx

This poem has great flow and insight.

I really enjoyed it.

Lovely poem darling =]

-Please check out the works that I have posted on here it would be highly appreciated and I think you would greatly enjoy them, Thankk youz-

XxThe Whole Time You Were Talking I Didnt Hear A Single Word You Said B/C Th3 Whole Time You Were Talking I Was Picturing You DeadXx

cassidyrae said...
on Sep. 16 2009 at 7:13 pm
your poem kind of caught me off guard. it gave me a new perspective to think about, i never thought of it that way before! its a good eye-opener, and incredibly creative.i could picture it all in my mind. very nice.

on Sep. 2 2009 at 4:53 pm
that, is, amazing. unique, brilliant, inspiring. it's very vivid to me on how if you study yourself, you'll develop yourself more (half in awe). but i'll not know who we truly fully are (half afraid) on this earth. 100/5! ;D

on Jul. 24 2009 at 7:39 am
lost_in_my_sea_of_dreams BRONZE, Houston, Texas
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i think its brilliant

on Jul. 8 2009 at 8:36 pm
quantumangel GOLD, South Setauket, New York
11 articles 0 photos 1 comment
This is a great poem! I especially love your use of imagery- the ink crawling up your skin, veins wrapping around your arms, etc. The ending phrase is perfect, and leaves the reader with a sense of sadness, but at the same time understanding. Congratulations on getting published- you deserve it!