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The Monster Inside

June 20, 2014
By Anonymous

Claws tear at my insides
Teeth rip at my heart
It's the monster
Begging to get out
Yearning for the light

Break me
Burn me
Kill me
But the monster won't get out
It can never get out

It thrives on my pain
Mocks me when I cry
Swallows up my hope
All in the hopes to of finding a way out
Too bad I know how to hide my monster

Sometimes it puts words on my tongue
It puts evil thoughts in my mind
Harsh words and devilish plans
I can't help but let it leak out
That's when I'm at my worst

My monster haunts me
If only I could defeat it
Slay the dragon
Some days I just want to let it out
That would only destroy me

So this is my final plea
Stop the battle going on inside me
The monster of my darkest hour
Keep it in, let it out
I want it gone, I can't let it go

The monster is my friend
No, my wost enemy
Can't you see, it's making me crazy
Take it away, get it out
Let it stay, I scream, I shout

Have you ever found yourself drowning?
Well this is far worse
How is it to die from the inside out?
No evidence, just a monster let out
You scoff but you don't know

My monster makes me insane
It feeds on my desires
And twists until I scream
Get out!
The monster belongs inside of me

What I want
And what the monster wants
It's the same, it's different
It wants out, I want it out
It won't leave, I can't bear to see it go

Why so contradicted
You may ask
I'd tell you to ask the monster
But seeing that it can;t get out
I'll do my best to explain

Have you ever wanted to fly
But realized your feet won't leave the ground
Have your heart and brain ever been at war
Well consider my monster looking for a way out
My monster, you see is my creation

We all have regrets
We all make bad bets
Mine just lives with me
Looking for a way out
Now, for the contradiction

Every once in a while
My monster makes a good point
Why not raise hell
And just let me out
What's wrong with destroying yourself

Of course, you see as plain as I do
That blades and swears
Risks and dares
Letting the monster out
It doesn't really get you anywhere

Logic battles with my darkest desires
Smoke fills the room and the clothes are on the floor
I say yes, I say no
The monster only wants out
That's where the contradiction comes in

If only I could have said it clearer
At least I managed
Now before I say goodbye
Before I let the monster out
Remember, there isn't light without dark


The author's comments:
The ideas seem kind of jumbled all over the place but that's kind of what the poem is about, that feeling when your thoughts are completely unorganized and you feel crazy because they're all jumbled in your head.

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on Jun. 28 2014 at 6:21 pm
Ashers101 DIAMOND, Lebanon, Pennsylvania
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Favorite Quote:
I don't want to be like everyone else, I want to be me. I won't walk with all of you on the ground because I can fly. -My own quote

Anyone who reads this, just letting you know it's my work. I don't know why some of my poems were posted as anonymous but I didn't mean for them to be. If anyone knows how to fix this, please let me know.