is this addiction?
it's just a scratch
just a scar
just a burn in mutated flesh
a cry for help
or sometimes just to feel anything at all
is this addiction?
am I going crazy inside?
what brought me to this place
what do I chase?
suffocating
I need air
I need space
maybe it's the voices that vibrate off these walls
or suicidal thoughts whispered like secrets into the fog
was this misery my choice?
sometimes they use my voice
tell me I'm nothing
tell me lying to myself
is this addiction?
what else could reduce me down to this?
why not bury my life ?
why not cease to exist?
I'll lie down in sweet bliss
would I even be missed?
just a statistic
just an irrational teen
attention seeker, suicidal thinker
how could this be me ?
this isn't the life I envisioned for my self
narcotics taunting me from the shelf
is this addiction?
this shouldn't be my life
no one should ever have to feel like this
& I
I am sinking the blade further
pushing it into my self because I deserve to feel its sting
a blind shadow in the dark
searching
for whatever relief it may bring
depression is just a thought
suicide is just a thing
but how could it be
some one help me
is this addiction?