I know what we used to be
Just best friends.
Always there for each other
24/7, no matter what.
We clung to each other while fighting our own battles
In fear of losing one another.
That is what brought us together.
Everyone saw us as the perfect couple,
And I believed it.
We cared deeply about one another.
But in reality we were really just best friends,
Our friendship treading on a thin line.

I know what I wish we could become
Back to the way things used to be
Just best friends.
I've gotten in so deep
Everything had gotten so twisted
I don't know how to escape.
I don't want to sit here and wait
But as I observe
What we used to have
Crumble before my eyes.
I worry...
I don't want to lose this
I don't want to lose our friendship
I don't want to become disconnected from you,
Distant.

I wish I could feel the same way as you
You've given me everything I have ever asked for
You've always been so kind and loving.
I told you I loved you
But we were so young...
How was I supposed to know what love really was?
What would you say if I took it back?
Would you hate me forever?
Would I lose you?

I wish someone would show me the easy way out
But there is no such thing.
I don't want to hurt you.
I like things the way they are
Except you expect me to be more than just friends.
But I just want to be best friends.

Where did we get so lost?
So confused?
How did everything come to this?
All I can say is "I'm sorry,"
"I love you,"
"But not in that way..."
I don't want to hurt you,
Please don't hate me,
I don't want to lose you forever.

I'm afraid
If I tell you how I feel
You will accuse me of stabbing a dagger into your heart
And watching you in pain,
Until the blood drains from your body,
And all that is left for me is your hatred.

I know what we used to be
Just best friends.
Why can't we go back to that?
Is everything too twisted and molded together
That the line between friendship and relationship
Is too far off in the distance?

I hate this.
A potpourri of feelings mixed up inside my head,
Not totally understanding how I feel,
Not remembering who I was before you,
Not knowing how to tell you,
How to explain.
Just sitting here writing my feelings down
On a piece of paper
That I will probably just burn
Like all of the other ones that I've written
For the last few weeks
Trying to figure out what to say to you.

I don't remember who I was before you,
How I felt before you.
Let me find myself again,
On my own.

All I can say is "I'm sorry,"
"I love you,"
"But not in that way"
I don't want to hurt you,
Please don't hate me
I don't want to lose you forever...
We used to be best friends.