My friend once said to me
“It’s either you get married…
or you break up”
She still asks
“Do you honestly think you two will last?”
High school sweet hearts
“The chances are so small” she nags
One in college
One in university
Ripped apart right at the end of the road
She knows how much I’ve been through,
Even though I’ve yet to tell anyone
The doubt inside her never ceases to break through her walls
“What does the future hold?”
she asks
and asks
and asks
but why must I choose to answer,
when I can choose to live?
Live in the present
The here
The now.

I can see what others can’t
I could see the way his life was filled with loneliness two years ago
He was new
He was alone
I could see that
I could see the way he looked at me
Those eyes so sure of what they saw
I knew it was good
I could see the way his fingers trembled towards mine on our first adventure
Shaking with the thought of fulfillment
I could see the way his heart grew with everyday we were together
I can still see that.
She breaks me down
Telling me that I’m insane for thinking with my heart
Telling me that I cannot be as stupid as her parents once were
Telling me that teenage love is merely a myth and should be forgotten
But could I ever forget him?
Can I forget the million movie dates?
Can I forget the way his hair looks as he rolls over to face me in the morning?
Can I forget the way he was always there?
I am never second place
I will never forget him
Never

If I think to a day when he is not there
I cannot bare this pain
If I think to a day where he is with someone else
I cannot bare this pain
His love burns through my whole being every time his name is mentioned
She thinks I am crazy
I know.
She thinks I am stupid
I know.
She thinks we have no chance
I know.
Who is this friend?
Why can I never seem to forget her?
I want to make her thoughts stop
Tell her that
I believe we can make it
Tell her that
I love him
Tell her that
She needs to believe in us
I push her away daily
Yet she always seems to climb back under my skin
Reminding me of the horror ahead
If he were to meet someone new in college
If I were to meet someone new in university
If by chance this love were to fall apart one day
What if she is right?
I am crazy to think that this could last forever
So young
I have so much ahead
So young
I have such a vast future
I am so young
And
Torn
Constantly picking petals from my mind
He loves me
He loves me not
He loves me
I know he does
What will the future hold?
I have my doubts
But he will never be one.