I feel like I am drowning.
kicking, screaming, and struggling to stay afloat.
I can see everyone around me breathing,
for they know how to swim and I lost that skill long ago.
I am down here, gasping for air and i’m asking myself why
am I submerged at the bottom with my toes just whisking the sand?
but then I have to remember, that it was me who made the decision to travel to the deep end anyways.
I am tired of kicking, and running out of breath to hold
It makes me wonder if I wish to sink
because my life has no depth anymore
unlike these dark waters.