The rate of my heart when I glance at you speeds up a thousand times more than I want it to. And when you smile that beautiful smile, my happiness turns to joy. You are all I ever wanted and all that is destroying me.

Maybe I should just face it..that I'm a little unstable. Because there are no words to describe you and me...it's all I ever see. But every day I wake up...I realize that's not reality. You're my dreams. My fantasies. My worst enemy.

You can light up my world with your fire or burn it down. All because you're hearing the sound of the crowd, and it pounds so loud that your own heartbeat starts to match theirs. And you are no longer yourself. You're hers.

I wish so desperately to touch your lips. One kiss and my eternity would be complete. But you'll never know. You'll never see.

You've got pieces of my heart on a string. A tightrope consisting of you and me. We walk across it like a bridge only mine is crumpling because Ive let you push me off.

Yes I would die for you all though Im not entirely sure why. You're the image of perfection in my eyes. Even though you stab me in my heart repeatedly and hear my cries.

But I can't help thinking...when I look up at the skies... what would it be like to actually have you...to call you mine? If I ever stop writing it's because I died.

For I cannot ever express all these feelings inside. I hate you at times because I know you're choosing the wrong girl. I wish you could see the vision in my heart. Us never ever being torn apart.

I wish it was possible to let you go. But you're a piece of art... you're story isn't visible to the whole world and your beauty may not be either. But I'm your prime observer. And all that I see I could not explain to thee.

Keep leaving me scars ...it's alright. I'll continue to cry myself to sleep each night. As long as you're here I'll be fine. You're my worst fear and greatest admiration. I see you like a hallucination.

If only you understood all that I need to say...maybe just maybe it wouldn't be this way. Why do I care so much? Why do I let myself believe you'll be different with me? I know I'll never be that special to you. And you know you'll always be that person for me.

So use me, cut my soul and cut it deep. The blood I feel I treasure. I keep. Because I fell and I fell and I keep on falling. To the point where no one can save me.

I did exactly what I didnt ever want to do. And I'd let you flirt because it made me feel whole. I let you in because I never thought my heart would force me to shut you out.

Maybe Im a coward. Maybe I'm a fool. But you're the true one to blame here. You told me you'd never hurt me. Promised you wouldn't leave. And yes, it's a little nieve, but I finally let myself believe those broken promises. Thinking they would set me free...that you would be the one guy I could actually trust.

Maybe just maybe one day the one whom I let myself fall in love with. Tears fall all to often only for the reason of seeing your face. Because it is in that moment that I remember the pain.

How can someone who gives you wings be the very one who keeps you from soaring? I could be flying right now. I could be strong and beautiful, confident and sure of things for once in my life. But you've held me back from all of that.

I walk alone with only my shadow to accompany me. In a forrest of doubt with out example of love or humanity.

You're never consistent, half way persistent, leaving me at a distance. You're lovely and kind, compassion always in your eyes. You break me apart but I am set on your heart.